I miss you.

I know I can control these feelings. I know I can. But sometimes, these feelings are too strong and I feel like telling you about it. No one has ever made me feel like this before and I really don't know what is going on in our relationship. There is no focus to it. I'm loving it though, but I need assurance from you. If you are gonna still treat me like this, like the way it has been for the past few months, then I need you to tell me straight how you feel because I can go crazy thinking about how much I miss you and how much I just want to spent some alone time with you, even just holding hands or sit and stare into space.

I don't want to ask for much and I don't want you to think that I have a lot of expectations upon you (even though I sometimes do). I just want you to tell me when you're ready and when you feel like it. I won't deny the fact of how many times I have tried to resist the temptations to go on and ask you about us first. But I don't want to be seen as too forward and impatient. I'm the girl, and I should act like one and wait patiently for you.

Last night while I was having dinner with my girls, I suddenly thought of you and my stomach feels queasy and jittery. I almost smile to myself to the thought of you and yes, it is super crazy. Sigh, what have you done to me?

Damn it. All these late night thoughts make me miss you even more, and the fact that I couldn't tell you straight sucks a lot.