And.

It honestly gives me great pleasure to know that I still do have friends who care for me and would ask me to make sure I feel alright and still in sanity. I'm one of those people who don't make noise verbally. I make noise in my head. And I think if my thoughts were to be mic up, everyone would be deaf to the drums.

Sometimes I look at my cat and wonder if he thinks a lot like I do. I honestly believe that he has a lot going on in his head, because whenever he stares at something, he looked at it in full curiosity. I don't really know if that is just plainly staring at that object or is he thinking about the mechanism of that thing.

At times I wish I was a cat. A sterilized one. So that I don't have to think too much about love life and about career and what's up in my future. All I would be waiting for is breakfast, lunch, dinner, hugs kisses and playtime with my owner, and death.

Anyway, back to where I started: I do have a lot to say but 95% of the time, I don't know how to express it verbally. Sometimes that is not the case. Sometimes I just don't know where to start. Usually when I meet up with my bestfriend to catch up and talk about our lives, earlier in the day, I would already plan out on what to say, in bullet points, so that I won't forget to mention it to her. It sucks you know cause even with my own bestfriend, I still tend to list out what I want to say and not spontaneously share it with her.

But then again, I greatly appreciate the friends who have come into my life, and caring about me (being optimistic here!) and making effort to understand me and make me feel welcome and a part of them. (I have weird liking for the word 'and' in this paragraph!)